Tuesday
C woke from his nap feeling warmer than usual. I thought nothing of it initially He was his playful self but when he declined to eat, I grew suspicious. Grabbed the thermometer and it slapped me with three digits 386. Geez no symptoms, no change in baseline "Let's give him his feed and monitor further" I told myself.
Close to 3 hours later...
C acted strange. He grew quiet and laid very still. Repeatedly pursed his lips and told me "mouth very sticky". He made a feeble attempt to turn to his side, winced and gave a look of discomfort. His breaths were shallow, stomach bloated and heaving. I kept calling out to him but he gave little response. When asked if he was feeling ok, he shook his head. He seemed to be drifting away, with eyes half shut.
I went ahead to suction him. At least I thought that was the next logical thing to do. Within seconds of inserting the suction catheter, he threw up. On the bed. Loads of it. C broke the silence with his hysterical cries. I shouted for hubby and continued with the suctioning. Hubby scrambled for the toilet papers, threw loads of it to soak up the vomit and desperately doing his best to do damage control. So that was it. We spent the next hour clearing the mess and sent the boy to sleep at 11pm.
Wednesday
He slept through the night after a dose of paracetamol. Needed another dose at 7am and it went well for the day with just a low grade fever.
7.40pm... he cleared his throat incessantly.
8.15pm... he didn't seem to stop so I knew I had to help clear his throat. Brought him to the room and C gave me that same awkward look again. This time, with the new sheets and mattress protector, I didn't want to risk it. Placed him on a rubber mat before I proceeded with suctioning.
Nope I wasn't expecting what was to come (Note: last milk feed was almost 3 hours ago).
Suction. Vomit. Suction again (as I needed to clear the remaining vomit in his throat to reduce the risk of aspiration). Vomit again. O2 dropped to 90%. Suction again. Vomit again. O2 at 94% and not picking up. C cried and screamed. Refused to let me continue.
I was in a dilemma. Should I continue and risk inducing another vomit or call it a night.
So there he was, coughing, trying to clear his throat but failed. O2 was still not picking up. I guessed I needed one last suction (a swift one!) and I better do a good job. So the tug of war began. C fought hard. He sure didn't want another. In the end we had to do it by force. Flipped him to his side, daddy held him and I did my best to clear as much.
C is now asleep. O2 looks good at 98%. Fever came down on its own without medication. He is still at risk for aspiration. Shall see how he fares tomorrow.
28 May 2015
26 May 2015
White Flag
The thing about staying in Punggol is the huge amount of dust; tiny white specks that settle on countertops EVERY single day like icing on a cake except they do not delight and do not go well with my dark coloured furniture. And not to mention the sand particles that rendered my Magiclean useless as they are too dense to be picked up. Being dealt with such a situation everyday drives an OCD-me nuts. I am either drained from the extensive cleaning or drowned in frustration putting up with dirt.
1-day, 1-week and 2-weeks old filters |
His bouts of illnesses for the past 2 months were probably aggravated by that. He had post nasal drip which caused him to choke and cough badly. He also had problems (still has) managing his secretions in the night while asleep. This combination was bad. It got to a point where he was coughing non-stop for hours. He was breathless and tired. It took a toll on his body as well. He had lost so much weight in a blink of an eye. His shoulders and knees crackle, his shoulder blades jutting out, I'm so afraid to move him around now, fearing I may break him.
His upper chest shrunk |
Looking all boney and fragile |
After 2 months of dealing with crappy days, I am totally exhausted. Last I checked (using a fitness band my hubby made me wear), I slept approximately 3 hours a day - 1.5hr deep sleep and 1.5hr light sleep. After that episode, I told him it's best not to keep track and I didn't need that to tell me the obvious.
So to sum it up... it has been a lousy period. Appointment after appointment for the next 2 weeks to follow. I hope I can keep up without collapsing.
Here's a throwback on C's PT session almost 1.5months back (yet another huge hurdle to get him back to shape):
Standing using a gaitor |
6 May 2015
What If Cayla Tested Positive?
My seventh draft. Still unable to put thoughts into words. Perhaps it was difficult to adequately describe how I felt in writing. I would try.
Since April, C was bugged by viruses. He was down for 9 days with a persistent high fever (39.8 degrees at its highest). On the 5th day we made a trip to A&E for routine blood and urine tests which he cleared. While on the road to recovery, came occasional episodes of desaturation and frequent choke-coughs. We were expecting another bout of illness but it did not come. By early May, desaturation returned with a vengeance, accompanied by a fever and cough. Last I checked fever spiked to 39.5 degrees. I hope we could get over this without checking in at the hospital.
That aside, what worried me was C missing an entire month of physiotherapy (PT). He seemed so fragile especially with joints that sometimes crackle when moved. His limbs and hips so skinny that they could possibly give way when force applied. Everytime it crackled, my heart skipped a beat and I literally sweat my head out in the next 15 minutes checking for signs of pains and jutting bones. I was so afraid of breaking him I have since refrained from putting pressure under his armpits, lifting him by holding the sides of his chest instead and quickly supporting his bum, worried that his body may not hold. This, a reminder to discuss with his panel of doctors on x-rays to be done during his next medical review.
Yet amidst these unsettling events, something weighs on our minds.
Following my earlier post, Cayla underwent a speech and hearing test during the same period. She was also assessed by a doctor at the Department of Child Development (DCD), KKH.
Doctor found her to have coordination issues and had to commence regular occupational therapy (OT). She explained that since C has a genetic condition, it was best that Cayla be tested for SMA as SMA of other types may sometimes manifest itself in many ways, in Cayla's case - poor coordination and muscle weakness. We were also told to watch out for signs of regression as an indication/red flag. Like I had mentioned prior, we were aware that Cayla had issues and needed help, though this did not come as a surprise, it wasn't easy to take in. DNA test has been scheduled for end of this month. Felt like deja vu and I am not liking the wait for the results (usually takes a month), that I'm pretty sure.
Today Cayla went for her first OT session. Feedback was poor - weak limbs, poor coordination, zero balance, weak core muscles. She requires more than once-a-month OT. Therapist suggested intensive therapy i.e. once a week for a month and to see her again 2 months later. To top it up, Cayla also needed PT which will be scheduled soon.
I did not know how the rest would take the news but for me it was simple - Cayla has been neglected for the longest time (due to C's condition) and she deserves the same (if not more) attention and early intervention to help her along. One thing at a time, one step at a time. We will get there somehow.
Since April, C was bugged by viruses. He was down for 9 days with a persistent high fever (39.8 degrees at its highest). On the 5th day we made a trip to A&E for routine blood and urine tests which he cleared. While on the road to recovery, came occasional episodes of desaturation and frequent choke-coughs. We were expecting another bout of illness but it did not come. By early May, desaturation returned with a vengeance, accompanied by a fever and cough. Last I checked fever spiked to 39.5 degrees. I hope we could get over this without checking in at the hospital.
That aside, what worried me was C missing an entire month of physiotherapy (PT). He seemed so fragile especially with joints that sometimes crackle when moved. His limbs and hips so skinny that they could possibly give way when force applied. Everytime it crackled, my heart skipped a beat and I literally sweat my head out in the next 15 minutes checking for signs of pains and jutting bones. I was so afraid of breaking him I have since refrained from putting pressure under his armpits, lifting him by holding the sides of his chest instead and quickly supporting his bum, worried that his body may not hold. This, a reminder to discuss with his panel of doctors on x-rays to be done during his next medical review.
Yet amidst these unsettling events, something weighs on our minds.
Following my earlier post, Cayla underwent a speech and hearing test during the same period. She was also assessed by a doctor at the Department of Child Development (DCD), KKH.
Doctor found her to have coordination issues and had to commence regular occupational therapy (OT). She explained that since C has a genetic condition, it was best that Cayla be tested for SMA as SMA of other types may sometimes manifest itself in many ways, in Cayla's case - poor coordination and muscle weakness. We were also told to watch out for signs of regression as an indication/red flag. Like I had mentioned prior, we were aware that Cayla had issues and needed help, though this did not come as a surprise, it wasn't easy to take in. DNA test has been scheduled for end of this month. Felt like deja vu and I am not liking the wait for the results (usually takes a month), that I'm pretty sure.
Today Cayla went for her first OT session. Feedback was poor - weak limbs, poor coordination, zero balance, weak core muscles. She requires more than once-a-month OT. Therapist suggested intensive therapy i.e. once a week for a month and to see her again 2 months later. To top it up, Cayla also needed PT which will be scheduled soon.
I did not know how the rest would take the news but for me it was simple - Cayla has been neglected for the longest time (due to C's condition) and she deserves the same (if not more) attention and early intervention to help her along. One thing at a time, one step at a time. We will get there somehow.
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